So last night was the big Papa Roach show. I woke up all excited. For once when I woke up I shot out of bed. Which is something I never do. I cut my usual 4 hours of school for a thursday into 20 minutes, came out and came up with a plan. Will admit I was a little worried before we left the house, my brother and I. But thats because I wasn't mailed out my tickets. There was an issue so I had to pick them up there. Arrived at Penn Station, walked the ten blocks to Nokia Theatre Times Square, got the tickets and was feeling a little bit better. Found out that Kill Hannah wasn't going to play because I think the previous night they had there gear stolen. Really hope everything works out and they figure out who stole there stuff. Brother and I decided to for Morningwood and Jet. Morningwood was good. I found it kinda entertaining the lead singer was on the floor a whole bunch. Maybe she has a thing for floors, guess I'll never find out. Then Jet came out. I was about to fall asleep. They sucked so bad. That and everyone in the venue had to endur looking at someone really ugly. I'm sorry but it's just wrong. So I went through all of that and decided although it might be hard I wanted to get closer to the stage. So after Jet finishs up we get closer and Tony hits the drum out of no where and my heart starts to race. I started not to feel so good so I moved back to the back wall. Brother started begging me to go sit down and I kept saying no. I needed to try to fight having a heart problem. I needed to try to fight letting my heart take over and try to do what I wanted. But that didn't last too long. I had to go back up the the seats. Attempting sitting down but because there were people standing literally right in front of my brother and I we had to move somewhere else. There was a little section by the stairs that we deicded to stand near. I got really into the music. Started singing along with the songs I got really loud and was dancing all over. Then yet again my heart starts to race so I had to stop and just stand there. I tried so hard to hold back my tears but I couldn't. It was so hard for me to realize that I'm never going to get to be one of thoes people. I'm never going to be able to get that close to the stage. The second part that was really hard for me was when they finished there set. Jerry and Tobin threw out there picks to the crowd and Tony threw his sticks. I stand there with tears in my eyes thinking that I'm never going to be able to do that. I'm never going to be able to stand that close to the stage as much as I'd love to. I guess I just have to deal with it. Deal with not being able to do what I love
:(.....if im not around for a while thats why
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not going to write too much since i'm still a bit tipsy but atleast you were able to get there! even if you couldn't be in the mosh pit it's still something to be present, you were able to feel the crowd and the band. i miss that feeling, i really do. so even if you can't do it to 100%, look on the bright side of it, you were there and got to have that feeling of unity with the band i miss so much. :)
i envy that!
Oh, hun.. : ( I'm sorry. I'm glad you got to experience the show though, there are a lot of fans who don't even get to do that much. Message me if you need to talk - you know the drill. :] I love yoou. †
omg i am so sorry!